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Sunday, February 24, 2008

okie everybody!
i supposed you all have seen the pictures put up for DAYS..
it's actually the celebration of me and hunnie.

[[ Our BIG BIG 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY. ]]

sorry ar.. been busy with Hospital Attachment.
teeheehee..
enjoy~~ weets!

The Big Big 24 Roses I Received! Y

i love the pressie too.. coz he wrapped this all by himself.
(p.s: i Y self-wrapped pressie, than to salesperson wrapping it.)like this pic lots.. =)
(w/ BlueSky Soda)1/2 dozen Osyters! it's back in stock now.. *droolz*i bet mummy will faint if she knows i ate sucha big one. Seafood ManhattanSmoked Salmon & MangoTriple Happiness with Strawberry Yogurt; weird combination.Surf & Turf
(Lobster & Steak)he brought 'Aleatico', we don't know it one of the fine wine until the staff told us.He said: 'must take the picture with Table No. 24 on it'Life....Neoprint afterwards!*totally loves!*the ribbon is neater after some amendments by him.last shot of the nice bouquet.one of my new-found love added to my closet.playing with self snapped photo in my room. That's all, Folks! Bye Bye!Good Night. =) this is what i've got from him. =D

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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

wtf.
watever...
tag is down on service for sucha loooong looong time.. bahh~
my TAG OF 2 YEARS AND A HALF!!!!
can't even retrieve it back from the flashbox account. stupid system.

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Saturday, February 16, 2008

CHINESE NEW YEAR PART II

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Ticket to Seremban.. and it only cost RM38..
thinking of kidnapping hunnie over.. *EVIL*..*Rubbing my hands*

this train's bridge.....
looks very much like.......One Missed Call's scene where the girl fell from, and get slammed by train..my lil bro look forward to the trip..this number..
24/01.. it'd be better if it's 24/02, right hunnie? =)除夕吃火锅.. Steamboat @ New Yr's Eve..i dressed mummy up.. and make her up..like it when my mummy smile.what you want?
*stares*i like this rainbow bridge..
dunno what's the place called.. newly open @2nd feb only..言言猴头菇香菇鲍鱼菇

黑木耳(Black Fungus)灵芝(Gano or LingZhi)growing ones...matured ones..

my prized bubble tea~
lychee ice blended with lychee bits, longans and generous amount of pearls!!they took my drink away.. while i was daydreaming..lovesick.sighz.. children's innocent smile and laughter..
can't be compared with.. all so natural..the lovebirds(夫妻档) around the shop.
my eldest cousin, jocelyn & steve.the one younger than me..
Ah Xian & Vanessa.. he looks like Ramien.. (0.o")捞鱼生.. Yusheng..
i arranged it myself..捞阿捞阿捞阿捞阿~~!my cousins.. the young ones.. i belong to senior ones already..
i found i got a total of 20 cousins..childhood... tsk.....boys always can't stay still..
the ultraman(left) & cyclop(right), below is the example..girls are all about the victory handsigns & cuddly soft toys..

my favourite two.. obedient but very very "STICKY!"
they'll stick to me round the clock like superglue..
vodka are dirt cheap there.. RM8..he slept thru out on my laps.. on our way to take train back S'pore..
very very comfy indeed.. even armpit smell is here..
(i drew it.. hohoho..)look at the third one.. it says.. indecent behaviours are PROHIBITED..
tsk.. malaysia.. how conservative.. i dun think u can find this at S'pore..BEEEEEEEPP BEEEEEEEEEPPP~!!they very very first visitor who came to my house..
back to his arms..

(END)

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Thursday, February 14, 2008

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY EVERYONE!!!
Y Y Y Y Y Y Y

this year.. this is mine!!
arrHHH YES!!!

very adorable, cuddly and flowers that could make me a proud girl of the day!

now for his turn..oops.. seemed a lil tweety-sized pressies..*glum* >.< (paste that "Y", I DID THAT OKAE!!!)our love story starts here..*grinz*tickets to KungFu Dunk & Jumper..
(P.S: Jumper Is BETTER.)out in the strong wind..
where i was left in the cold..he got me a little more heart-warming surprises..
little gestures.. run all about in the mall..
wine, glass, candles and all..
i really like it.. doesn't matter if it's KFC that we two agreed upon..
it just taste like a course of fine dinning under the stars with him..
who cares what steak is, who cares if it's just two of us @ isolated area?
we've escaped to a place where no one disrupt & interfere.. =)

I Love You, Hunnie.
Thanks for everything that you've done..

You've rekindled the feelings back, yet and again..
But don't you leave me alone in cold, never ever.
It seemed such a long time to pass before you get back for me..

YY14/02/2008YY

First Ever Lifetime Experience,
Forever Locked In My Heart.

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

i started off as a very very fuming-mad girl this morning..
oh well.. eventually softened by hunnie's cuddles and consolations.. =)
practically do nothing today.. walk walk eat eat around PlazaSingapura..
a little heart to heart session with hunnie..at istana park..
sharing what's going thru in our mind of each other and all..
giggles and laughter and lotsa shoulder slappings by me..
haha.. those were the times.. and i missed it very very much..

tomorrow.. hunnie's gonna packed up one whole day of goody programmes tomorrow!!
so look forward to it.. aww... when can tommorow come? *whine* =P

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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Had another happie day with hunnie again~

CityLink Mall
usual icecream waffle at Gelare, their baby pork ribs pasta is superb! woohoo..
but a little unhappy at the waiting time and the way they handle things..
anyway.. we got sort of complimentary slice cake for both of us..
Blueberry Cheesecake for hunnie and Chocolate Fudge cake for me.
shop around and all.. frequent Citigems.. though i got something in mind..
he wanna buy the necklace for me.. but crudely just say 'No'..
so that hunnie wun spend too much..
it pains my heart to see him spend over my stuffs..

Marina Sq.

watch CJ7.. but it's isn't as nice as Ah Long Pte Ltd..
and hunnie went soemwhere to get something for me..
while i shop around diva, topshop, Miss Selfridge and all..
got so much i wanna buy at Miss Selfridge this fall..
for my V day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wah.. the ever first time he planned up a surprise for the oncoming big day..
^^

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Saturday, February 09, 2008

Happie Chinese New Year, everone!

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especially Hunnie, Azri, Wendy, Jehan, Theinesh, Joe, Emily, Zichee and many others who sms me.

apparently.. i went malaysia again.

it's getting more and more boring each new year.

this year wasn't spared either, but with a lil speck of difference only.

guess what i'm doing? i've been doing bubbletea business over there.. wahaha.. i only know my cousins & their family setup a stall in front of their grandma's house.. not my grandma.. their maternal side's.. as usual..

new yr's eve i stayed at MY grandma's house all till the night when i was about to sleep.. my elder cousin(i'm the 2nd senior of my "clan" of cousins) ask me to tag with her back to tg. sepat; few kilometers apart. kinda crave for fireworks again i scurried up their car in no time.. >.<

i wasn't at all disappointed.. coz although the police are making their rules stricter, there's still people buying fireworks and blossomed them into dazzling flowers up the sky. and above all, the unit just beside my cousins', had them nicely displayed for the last 5-10 minutes. very astounding! and i stood rooted just below them! the feeling is just so inexplicable.. it's like they are surrounding you.. totally loves!

first day, after rounds and rounds of collecting angbaos.. we went to the bubbletea shop to help out.. and most of us wore black and white.. some with vests and all.. and the way we worked are just like a team.. some wash cups, some serve, some do the drinks, some do cleaning & some do ordering.. i felt a lil like "coffeeprince". except, oh well, it's bubbletea, dessert and all.. heh.. 10am - 2am daily..

second day work as well.. gambled with cousins and their boyfriends.. was lovesicked.. almost everyone knew something abt hunnie.. practically no one to really talk to.. see my cousins cuddling bf(s) and all.. *brood* & *sulk*

third day.. work! things got very boring.. it's like a boring routine.. found a little baby birdie.. but it died under my care.. quite sad though.. and got very pissed off coz of hunnie too.. =X

fourth.. called my dad early in the morning to get me home.. and i stoned at grandma's house for the rest of the day.. swarmed by the kids! and oh God~ i rather run back to bubbletea shop and rot there.. goody.. i got them in control lah.. keep them busy with all kinds of children games and ask them to sing.. wahahaha.. human trolley race, hide&seek, 123stickman!(aka freeze.) had rowdy yusheng. and my battery fused after a dinner show.. zZzZz; charging in progress..

fifth, played cards with kids.. no money involved.. packed my luggage and prepare for returning Singapore le..

very boring though.. veryvery..

(Part One)

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in this world of social deception and false flattery.

i learnt to set things from right to wrong.

Never. never am i going to brave my naked heart,

to this deceiving world, not anymore.

in us, there's no solid promises.

what is promises? can you really tell me?

i ain't wonderwoman,

where my heart can repeatedly get shattered; be revived.

i ain't an object,

where it is cold, hard and had no feelings at all.

you're the one who have the access to everything of me.

yet you're the one who cruelly broke my heart & tainted it.

why am i the one who piece things up,

and wait for you to broke it again?

in school, reality is the word.

all vying and lust after good results, effcient work.

i don't feel warmth in this "we're one big family" thing.

piece of shit.

i can act like a dumbo as though i know nuts,

as though i don't feel for a certain issue,

i do know more than anyone who think i don't.

but do wait till one day when retribution came knockin on the door.

i'm going extremist; plunging to anything that could end of me

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Friday, February 08, 2008

Someone birthday as important.. lol..

it's MISS CHAM's birthday!!!

also 21st yr old what.. then considered as important lo!

i found a few closely-knit similarities between both grace and wendy darLin..

tsk.. it's pure coincidence after i really go and think about both of them..

what i can say is.. "WAH SAE.."

haha..

snoopy character for Miss 21-year-old-grace-cham.

>.<

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Wednesday, February 06, 2008

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY WENDY!!

WHAHAHA..

as my darLin wendy proceeds to her 21st birthday (3rd Feb), i wished this precious of mine to be happie, and find 'The One' very soon.. i wanna be gan ma!!! haha.. most of all.. may her prospects in study soars to a greater height.. & do take care of her health.. & not to be sucha angsty girl la..
must always keep in touch with me k?

she's getting more and more cute.. >.<

the three very belovable ones; busy handling food for guests.men in action. =)got very bored while hunnie is busy with the pit.this is called FOOD; full of loves & thoughts. ^^*romph romph chomp chomp*"what? cannot eat like this meh..?"i'll change my style then.. teeheehee..smileyhe's up to some stunts..he gonna perform.. throwing tree onto the shortie coconut tree nearby..
he said it'd look better on tree than hand-held.. -.-"the very last picture of the day before we went off.. near twelve..
wahlao.. a bit jealous loh.. coz he never smile this nicely when taking picture with him leh..
good game.. bt it's so nice lah..

one hunnie, one darLin.. love it!! Y

my sweet boy sent me home though it's late.. and yes.. totally send me home.. all till my doorsteps and until door open.. awfully sweet!

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Friday, February 01, 2008

funny.. lol..

i nearly laugh to death when watching this..
sorry if it's in chinese.. keke..
source from JinGui's Blog..

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Thursday, January 31, 2008

do you think i'd wake up early in the morning & see him there waiting for me already?
waiting to get out together, to spent the very very first day since our very first loooonggg parting?
i think he'd still complaint about the distance, despite i had EVER made my way all to SENGKANG before 8.30AM.

i ever FANTASIZED he'd be very very caring, concerning & sweet to think of doing the same to me.
but now that i've enough of the fact that i'm always slapped back with the same thing over & over again.
that he wun move his arse & do them.

this is the very very last time my hope will be burning such thoughts, before it diminished to nothingness.
pure nothingness.

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Tuesday, January 29, 2008

he'd be back in 3 days' time.
i knew, like any typical lazy students..
he wun be able to do up 21 written assignments to me..
NEITHER will he lay his hands on paper, since the letters of departure to me..
i'm very sure of it, and UNLESS he sees this entry..
STILL, i don't think he'd do as told..

(private entry for hunnie, thereafter.)

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♡ frequency doesn't determine rarity.

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Thursday, January 24, 2008

i'm aching on the inside, bleeding on the outside.
the ever first time i bleed so much.

**this has nothing to do with my boyfriend. but somewhat to do with him.
ato be disclosed a week later. after i'm all healed.

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23RD MONTH

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after my brother mugged so much, he finally fair well in his O'level

you can see him sleep very early, can see him play maplestory whole day.

and watch anime.. wateva.. such a junkie & full time slacker...

how i wish i can do it like him, during my O's.. i really burnt 3 whole days for those stupid paper.. tsk..

i'll disturb him whenever he study

oh brood.. zZzZz.....

okae.. this entry is for you, stupid brother..
rewards for your good results.. haha..

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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

It’s been 11 days... 31st January still seemed so faraway... it’s like a tunnel, what surrounds me is just darkness... to get to you, I’ve to walk through it myself… Looking back, I’m just halfway there... do you know how hectic & how scary it is for me? Why are you so cruel?

I just felt that I’ve been drifting my lifeless self around the school... I don’t know what I had been doing… I just know I have to stay this way... not until you brought me to your arms again... Life’s been really really hard… I’m given lotsa tasks to do during projects…very last minute project work... Very very last minute notices that I have to hand up 2 subjects’ individual assignments… even exams... I only knew 2 days before... I’ve to stay strong, to fight hard for my studies and my future, to fight hard to cope with such a mess-up school life here… to ease myself in my solemn life... I’ve to bear everything through without you…

life is like a stage, in this stage of mine, I’ve got not much script line during each play of my day… due to circumstances, I can’t reveal my real self.. I can’t express my emotions… not even when I’m near death… I’ve to wear a mask carrying expressions that my screaming inner self doesn’t want me to be… everyday, I woke up with an angered self, what should I be? How must I present in front of people? I really can’t take it anymore…

What makes you all think that this bubbly & cheery girl standing right in front of you is really happy? No one.

I really hate it when my teacher shared a tad bits of my life yesterday… what she ask me, I just answered as how things are... it’s a dreadful decision I made that I feel like knocking myself against the wall… what makes this woman I barely know, knows stuffs about me when for such a long time, no one bothers… not even the closer ones bothers… that teacher doesn’t reserve the rights anyway… maybe I need something I can talk all my hearts out to… I’m brimming with thousands of sorrows… and it’s her plain luck that she came and had a share of me…

fuck it.

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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

i wanna visit

Louvre in Paris
Milan
Leaning Tower of Ipsa
Ely, a town @Cambridgeshire, England.
Taiwan
Bangkok, Thailand.
Barcelona, Spain
Mauritus, Maui, Mediterranean sea
Sydney & Gold Coast, Australia

okae.. enough said..
i don't think i'll get to travel so much too..

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Sunday, January 13, 2008

your departure wasn't what i want..

at times, i just wish this is a nightmare,

that i'll fall into a deep deep sleep

and that i'd wake up only when you come back.

*i've left an email for you, look at it hunnie..*

Pom Kit Theung Ter Mak MakY

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Wednesday, January 09, 2008

your departure, my misadventure.

my nightmare starts here.

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Sunday, January 06, 2008

the short call really meant alot to me.
i had lotsa eye twitchings; eventually dismiss as folks' tales i shouldn't believe..
i dreamt of you in my room..
like many dramas in teevee.. i'm afraid that some mishaps might have happened to you..
but right at noon, you gave me a call.. to tell me ure fine..
thank God.. he answered to my frantic worries..
it's only day two hunnie.. i'll wait for your return..
it's just a 4 days of communication breakdown.. i must get over..
the 4weeks overseas training @thailand has yet to come.. i'll have to live with it very soon..

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Saturday, January 05, 2008

i haven't been feeling well lately.. now that i've lost my voice.. i wonder is it a bad thing or good thing to have..

the good thing is..
from this i'll learnt how observant are people around me.. practically none.
even if i don't talk, it's alright to them too.. coz i'm a quiet girl in school.. occasionally rowdy..
i learnt, even if sick, i can't be compared to those who don't have computers & phones..
i still have to work on project as hard, whereas she could be dating man & get absent almost everyday.
i wonder what's got into her.. shut down everything & her part will be done?
i might as well shut down myself.. stupid shit..
this made me prefer more of attachment, than to school even more..
i hate schools, but i still have to hold on.. hanging on for 1 more fucking year.
no one knows abt it..

the bad thing is..
i can't find a bad thing about it.. except that tuesday is my oncoming practical exam..
you learnt CPR for 8hrs over 3 days, and next week is practical.. very well done..
i wonder how do i verbalize while doing CPR..
i rather my health depleted, and send me into deep deep coma.. until he's back..

*i'm voiceless still, but i rather stay on like this to see humanity.*

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Wednesday, January 02, 2008

my cousins.. i wonder how
are they doing.. (o.O")

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