Thursday, March 23, 2006
thatx it.. elyna will be officially opted out of ite this coming friday.. i am not going to take my bcm exam this coming monday.. what to do when i haven't do anything much to my flash stuffs and my dreamweaver.. correct..? *sighz*
hmm... well.. actually i also wanna do up such proj of my own also de.. but should all of you know that at that period of time, i was in a dilemma of tempted to do and wanna dumped everything behind and wait for my poly results.. duhz.. ended up in a mess.. my poly things are in a mess... i dun even know where to start either.. hmm.. shall go poly tomorrow.. register in the convention hall myself..
well.. to my classmates and everyone.. ely going le wor.. remember me alright?! haha.. think there wun be much chances of encountering another "elyna" in your life.. the name is quite uncommon as far as i know..
anyway.. all of you gotta cram for your bcm le.. think it'd be rather easy.. letter, memorandum, notice, fax and minutes of meeting sort of stuffs.. lucks to everyone..
and to the other three future poly peeps of our class.. going poly le wor.. hope everything went well in your future endeavours .. nothing cropped up kae..? woah.. there would be future civil & structure engineer and IT genius(es) from our class.. and of coz.. Missy Kuch... taaadaah~! haha.. everyone must work hard wor~! jia you jia you!!
haix.. i am going..
what is future.. and where's my future.. haix...
sayoz all~
love eLy
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006
i'm so confused.. was it so nice to tag without any names or something thatx insulting to those not related..? yes i know that if i were to pursue the matters further, the culprit who be grinning secretively somewhere.. thinking that no one had caught up with him.. ya.. i know.. no one caught up.. but i had found out something, in which i dun wanna the matters to be brought to light.. i wasn't that sure either.. but creep, do not do this kinda things anymore alright..? having to get off this time round doesn't mean that you'll get off the next.. if such matters goes over a long period of time, i am sure that all of you wun see me anymore.. i'll be gone.. the tags are done by the same person.. yes.. having different name doesn't mean that i can't keep track of you.. always remember this, if there were things you're not happy about.. DO NOT drag those who doesn't even know anything.. be it family members, pets, classmates, schoolmates or so.. was it so nice to put things in such an ugly situation? no.. i dun think so..
i am AGAIN, mentioned in that bitch's blog again.. i know Her well.. another big ass with no guts to say it in front of me.. don't think that i wouldn't know anything if she were to change Her blog address and bad-mouthed me yet and again.. i didn't bother Her right from the day we quarrel.. however, i was dragged into her blog.. fine.. watever big-V slut..
i'll be returning my bow this coming fri.. wardha quit too.. darn.. she quit before i do.. swift act..
oh ya.. by the way.. i had FINALLY received my enrolment package!!! wee!! what i can say..? somewhat happy and saddening.. aiya.. mixed feelings..
my com is giving me prob.. what?! again? freak... yes.. but it's really really not my fault this time round.. can someone stand out and help me with the com prob? it requires re-formatting i guess.. microsoft window xp home edition.. many thanks.. HELP ME!!
my bill.. another headache.. it had burst to a freaking 85 bucks.. think i seriously need to grab a job and work for a while.. if only i had $200 dropped from the sky.. *daydreaming*
okay.. lastly.. on the behalf of the culprit.. i would like to express my apology to Paul's parents and friends for the inconvenience and unnecessary scoldings occured.. i am really sorry for causing these prob.. i can't ensure if such things would happen again.. but i'll try and take some preventive measures.. =)
will someone lift me from such happenings today? i had enough of everything.. revive my tired soul...
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Monday, March 13, 2006
依然是朋友
情人节的前一天,他离开我身边
却剩下我到至今的想念, 那一夜我陪着自己哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他一样很想念, 直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店, 知道有些感受
我和谁都不曾说出口, 我们之间隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂, 可是你, 你怎么说
你知道好事不是从此避开我, 哦,
我一样难过, 多希望我们不曾相识过
才知道有些感受, 我和谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友, 谁会有勇气去开口
不在乎不再难过, 我们还有好大好大的借口喔～
故事的最后, 我们都不曾失去过什么
我们依然是朋友..
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
wEndY aR wEndY...
i've got lots to say too.. hmm.. how should i say.. our encounter with each other, i can say that it's fate that draws us near.. we start off just by a funny and relax introduction to each other.. and now, a great buddy of eLy!!
having the chance to get in the poly, is what i want yes, but that was the 'Elyna' one year ago who wanted it very very much.. the current one, doesn't really mind where she is now.. NP ITE NP ITE.. it's still the same to her..
i simply couldn't bear to leave you.. just like that.. jason as usual, would be late as before.. hammie goes school on and off, on and off.. the picture of you attending class alone made me so yi yi bu she.. haix.. having been such an hyperactive gal is always been the real me.. and in a way, brighten everyone up.. i hope that i had bring joy and laughter to the class.. keke.. then as for the chocos.. hmm.. must feed you lots lots.. then eat till fei fei.. more energy to burn your brain cells in the near future.. teeheehee.. i am so mean.. sorrie wor.. yi hou xin ku ni le..
well.. many things happened for the pass few days.. shan't breathe a word here.. but you should know the source of the matters.. series of them.. hmm..
eh.. think this reply will rot if i were to continue the kidnapping.. muhaha.. i'll stop here le.. be sure to remember Elyna hor.. ELYNA.. E L Y N A.. haha.. my name so big.. definitely can remember liao..
but be ready to see Missy Kuch often in hospital wor~! haha.. my surname so recognisable.. confirm can checked de.. >.<
with much misses and thoughts of you in mind.. love you darling..
Missy Kuch
i am just so tired of this dilemma.. restless soul.. someone please save me..
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Monday, March 06, 2006
All.. there wun be laughters from me, there wun be voices of me..
there wun be traces of me, anywhere in the school..
not anymore..
but what i know..
i know i'll still be in everyone's heart if they came to think of me one day..
i appreciate lots, i love you lots..
may our friendship last, of me in thoughts..
bunchful of loves from eLy..
i've been down on mood... i really dunno which side should i go.. die lah die lah.. think i gonna get depression liao... pending thoughts and awaiting conclusion.. i had came up with a third choice.. will disclosed soon..
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
Is Love Painful?
“The pain associated with relationships has more to do with fear, than love.”
Who hasn’t experienced the pain of love? Or is it the pain of rejection? The pain of self doubt? The pain of fear? It’s important to distinguish between love and totally separate feelings.
When it comes to pain surrounding love, we’re more likely referring to the “add-ons” of love. The love baggage, we might call it. For some reason, many people assume negative emotions are a part or element of love. But experientially we know this isn’t true.
Love is not painful, it feels incredible. The pain and hurt we feel doesn’t come from love, it comes from our doubts, fears, anxiety, perceived rejections, broken trusts, anger, jealousy, envy, etc. So why do we as a culture lump all those other feelings in with love?
Perhaps its because we feel these uncomfortable emotions most often in association with our love relationships. Our primary relationships are important to us, so we assume these doubts and fears are all part of the loving experience. But is this really true?
When we are fearful, angry, anxious, unhappy, or jealous, are we truly experiencing a state of love? They sure feel different, don’t they? Love feels warm, open, joyous and filled with a deep sense of appreciation. Pain steps into a love relationship when you switch it from a “wanted relationship,” into a “needed relationship.” You don’t NEED any one relationship. Want? Yes. Need? No.
If you go into a relationship not feeling terribly good about yourself, you’re more likely to become dependent on your partner to help you feel good about yourself. If we felt empty before they appeared in our lives, we fear the emptiness returning if they leave, so their staying with us becomes paramount. That dependency can create all kinds of fear and unhappiness when there’s a perceived threat to you staying together.
If we aren’t giving ourselves the acceptance we crave, we look to those around us to provide it for us. Again, none of this has a thing to do with the love you feel, but everything to do with the fear you feel.
If you really want to remove the love baggage of fear and unhappiness, the first step is to improve your self awareness and self acceptance.
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Friday, March 03, 2006
In am in.. for my first choice... but i dun feel the happiness.. why..?
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
ya.. i know i know.. tomorrow's the day.. quite worried about the outcome.. deep down, i was in a dilemma.. i dunno i wanna go or not.. i can't put down my friends and you.. on the other hand.. i got my nursing ambition to pursue, my wishlist to follow..
late afternoon, which was after our BCM.. most of us walked out together.. the feeling is so good.. i can sensed our close bonding.. everyone laughed and joke, laugh and joke non-stop.. it set me in deep thoughts.. will i ever see such kinda friends in poly..? i am afraid of facing another insitution which is much more complex than my current college.. i love my college.. day by day.. it's gone and never be back.. it's my pleasure to see them so exuberent, yet so hurtful and unbearable to bid them goodbye to end off.. i gonna missed everything of ite.. friendship so true.. this is a feeling i never had before.. not even in secondary school.. i am scared to face the next stage of academic studies, alone, without them.. i don't think i'll be used to it..
now, i dun even know why am i on the verge of tears..
i fear that i would broke down, on my very last day.. i can even picture it..
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Guys realize that the girl holding onto u.. is PERFECT in their own special way.....
(¯`v?¯)
`*.¸.*´
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(¸.•´ (¸.•´ .•´ ¸¸.•¨¯`•.
We cant go back to wat we once had.. Live w/o regret...
The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you...
Always remember that.
She can always walk away and up,
getting someone else who can love her
more.
For all you know,
there is someone out there wooing her
already,
but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her..
There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you
are loving
her now,
fufill her every need and love her as
much as she
loves you.
Understand that.
Girls have a huge guilty concience.
...imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today...
and then you cheat on her by hugging
and kissing
another gal.
and then you run back to her...
and u do the same....
but you see love in her eyes...
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?
She loves you not because you are
good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you have a car.
She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say,
everything
you do.
Guys.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you
that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that
special
girl you have.
For everything she has done for you, the
least
you
can do is to give her unconditional love
as she
has given to you.
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