Tuesday, October 18, 2005
i had been a happy gal.. really.. a happy gal.. i have changed over these few months.. i am not afraid to stand alone.. somewhat, able to brave the storm.. there's been someone who's been there for me.. all out for me i guess.. he'd be behind if i were to fall.. console me.. not angry at my white lies.. sensitive to my mood changes and feelings.. shoulder will always be there for me to cry on.. to rest on.. i am not afraid to share my thoughts.. i've got trust in him.. why was i wordless when there's so much i wanted to talk about..? why did i feel at peace when both of us got quiet..? and why do i enjoy the short-lived silence that exist between us..? i am at comfort, when with him.. i felt at ease when i just look at him.. serenity.. secure.. relieved.. all there.. been trying real hard not to think abt him all the time.. it's not working.. there's just 1000 words to say.. and i do not know where to began..
I know that you're hiding things
using gentle words to shelter me
your words were like a dream
but dreams could never fool me...
Not that easily
I acted so distant then
didn't say good-bye before you left
but I was listening
you fight your battles far from me......
Far too easily
'Save your tears cause I'll come back'
I could hear that you whispered
as you walked through that door
but still I swore to hide that pain
when I turn back the pages
Shouting might've been the answer
what if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
but now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart....
'Cause One Thousand words
Called out Through the Ages
They'll Fly to you
Even Though I can't see
I Know That Reaching you
Suspended on Silver Wings
Oh, One Thousand Words
One Thousand Embraces
Will Cradle You
Making all of Your Weary Days Seem Far Away
They'll Hold you Forever........
Oh One Thousand Words
Have Never been spoken
They'll fly to you
they'll carry you home
back into my arms
Suspended on Silver Wings
And One thousand words
Called out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Making all of your lonely years into only days
They'll hold you forever.........
A Thousand Words...
i enjoy his company.. i glad that he came along.. we dun have to be under the same roof to love each other just as much as always.. love you..
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
Brr.. watever.. ever wonder what happened to me..? it's seems like i've never been blogging for ages.. duhx.. there's something wrong with my MSN and i do not know what to do with it.. it just give me tonnes of problems.. no matter how hard i try, i just couldn't logged in.. and i had been removing and adding the programme on and off again.. somebody just save me man.. that com.. haix.. just don't wish to brag anymore about that.. where's the link between blogging and MSN..? tell ya.. i am a simple person.. the usage of my computer is just there for me to maintain contact with my friend and blogging and some miscellaneous stuffs... i am not really a game addict.. despite there's a high influx of classmates playing maplesea and warcraft.. miraculously, i am not into it.. without MSN, it's like a loss of an arm.. can't talk to anyone.. brr.. good thing that i still got my handphone.. wee~! some of the concerns is still be able to get to me.. i had been out with Jie for one consistent week instead.. everyday is exuberant for me.. though there wasn't much place for us to go.. it's so small in Singapore~! *grumble* but i am still feeling luxuriant.. i am still feeling contented..
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Thursday, October 06, 2005
i have shut myself entirely.. all against her from toking or having any contacts with me.. i even plan to change my route to my school.. not wanting to be seen.. not wanting to see her.. not wanting her to comment anymore.. never ever.. and things went off smoothly.. i had never seen her for months.. soon there start my school.. sort of third grade tertiary insitution.. i kept a low profile out of it.. and her's is Junior College.. which most had considered it as the "first grade".. whatever, whoever, whichever.. i do not care.. i go my way and she goes her way.. it's been two months when the godsister of hers came over to my school to claim her certificate.. there she saw me.. i was shock in the first place.. but i still manage to pluck up the courage and talk to her for a while.. and i strongly believe that.. she will tell Her in no time.. it went within my predict.. and i knew it.. She brag it in Her blog.. saying that she know that i went there and i do not want anyone to know.. what the meaning of this..? she indicated that i wanted to keep it a low profile.. and yet she "smartly" smudged it across her blog.. and what does it shows..?
is she that """naive"""(<- tripled the quote; damn "naive"), so much so that she's dumb enough to tell what people, what one don't want others to know..? thatx so fake.. more fake than artificial boobs.. never to mentioned michael jackson's distorted face.. how evil-hearted she could be.. seems most of my secondary school's dudes came to know of it.. and i hate her for this.. it seems that that's not enough to satisfy her crave to expose my whereabouts in the place i am studying at.. she even went to the extent of trying to get my boyfriend's email address.. to tell him of it i guess.. i never told him that i went there to study.. i told him somewhere else..
the beauty exposed ;
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
things revolves around me are somewhat connected to her mostly.. i do not know what to do.. till now.. she still wun stop all the blabbering.. instead she became worst.. i have actually became the one who's "backstabbing" her.. i had been told that i had been bad-mouthing her to Eugene or her so-called "boyfriend".. in my concious.. i have never told anyone close to her other than Eugene.. and what i had told him is similar to what i had put in my blog.. well.. this is her capability.. and her effect.. it's been months.. there's definitely a probability of seeing her.. since we lived two blocks away from each other.. the first time i ever had an encounter with her, after the quarrel, is when both of us actually took the same train by concidence.. we've never knew of each other's presence when we alighted from the train.. both of us seemed shock when we saw each other.. but later, back to our pretendence again.. to avoid getting into Causeway Point together.. i simply took a fast detour to the Civic Plaza.. and once again.. she integrate at the same point as me.. i was like.. "what the fuck..?" not even this.. we went into the library at the same level as well.. could it have been god who had created this kinda embarrassing scene..? duhz.. the next day.. i went to her blog.. and she was toking about me again.. she even said that i could have went there to see my godbro.. she's been suspecting this and that.. not something which one could hold their breath for long.. i went there for useful purposes, dude.. it's library..~! please man.. whatever..
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