Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Yesterday.. i took my courage to brought up the subject of the intention of getting into poly via my O level results, in which i sat two year ago.. my words sent my dad into deep thoughts.. i am just so afraid that he'd strongly object to my idea.. but i know, having to inform him after what i had done on my own accord.. was partially my fault too.. as a daughter, i should have sit him somewhere and talk it out.. discuss about it.. but i usually dun do that..
but i am glad to say that he never blame me for doing this.. he said it's better to get into poly than to remain in ite as a whole.. he still look down on ite as usual.. it's one thing he'll never understand about ite.. he has never been in ite.. not even a step.. i wouldn't blame him..
our school's contestants in Campus SuperStar, he looked down on initially.. are now the vying for the top few.. ite doesn't have to excel in academic wise.. we can outwin others in many ways.. irregardless whether they are good in academic results or not.. we're producing scorers in another unique way.. as observed.. not all of our fellows schoolmates is as bad as what many may think.. it's just a school system which slow down the teaching a little.. and teach more basic things to get us ready.. it's in a way.. filtering out those who's better graded, and promote them to poly.. those who did not do well, at least have a cert to assure them a secured job.. it's somewhat a proof to the employers that we acquired some skills they may need.. hmm.. this 8 months is a learning journey of my life.. greatful of the school for taking me in.. if not been for the school, i wouldn't have know what is a better friendship.. trust.. loyalty.. and i wouldn't have know another circle of great friends.. great classmates..
ain't it..? =)
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Sunday, February 26, 2006
Orange has been picking on me.. not that i am the only one who sense it.. the rest of the people also can tell.. i don't even know what the f she want.. coming late is not what i can avoid.. i've been waking up at 0545 in the morning.. just to tend to the stupid session at 8... the bus in the morning is always a big slow poke... mrt even worst.. from the usual 3-5 minutes.. can even took 8-10 minutes to come.. it happened every dummie Saturday.. and i've got grounded every Saturday.. I live at CCK!!! not like your Ang Mo Kio/Toa Payoh( the author herself, always confuse about the two area.. bah~ -.-").. toot poh.. Coach understand me for coming late.. Orange bloody cannot.. Alien.. ask me something also dun call my name first.. then i purposely pretend never hear loh.. she got nothing to say le, then change subject.. saying that i never respect her.. then keep on blah blah blah.. let her scold until she stopped barking.. but deep down, let me ask you guys.. if someone dun respect you as a member or secretary.. would you still respect them back..? for me, no way! when i shoot well and win wardha.. she nag at her saying "...... even elyna also can win you..." @#$!&*%!!!! wtf.. what did she think me as..? always low-point scorer meh..? always wun improve de meh..? it's in a way insulting me, and looking down on me norh.. hate her man.. *step rotten orange* it seems as if that she's the coach like that.. i wun do any strike back.. coz i know that i might be going to np soon.. wun see her sickening face.. humph.. tolerance is what i need now.. but i still feel like kicking her butt.. see how first.. =P
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Monday, February 20, 2006
Hermit Crab
A hermit crab lies on the shore,
Hiding in its old, worn out shell.
It refuses to come out of it.
It refuses to let its soft, vulnerable body get hurt, again.
Even though the sky is so blue, even though the sea is so calm, even though the wind is so cool, it tells itself,"No. I will not go out. The sky may just turn gray. The sea may just turn rough and the wind may just lead seagulls to me."
So, in it stays for a year and another.
Then this day, a beautiful shell was washed up the shore.
The hermit crab stares at the shell, tempting to crawl out and change its home.
But it told itself,"No. I will not go out. I may get attacked by seagulls. The shell may not be comfortable. The shell may not suit me. This shell is much better."
So, in it stays and watches another hermit crab take it away.
Day by day, night by night.
The hermit crab remains in its shell.
The more it thought, the deeper it hides.
The deeper it hides, the further it is from the outside.
The further it is from the outside, the more courage it needs to crawl out.
Then this hot day came along.
The heat was so unbearable that it made the hermit crab crawl near the outside.
It then realised how beautiful the sky looked, how serene the sea sounded and how cooling the wind felt.
It then gathered courage and decided to wait for a shell to be washed up the shore.
Day by day, night by night.
Just when the hermit crab was about to give up, a shiny shell was washed up the shore on a moonlit night.
It hesitated for a moment.
"Should I or shouldn't I? To at least try then fail or never ever have the courage at all?"
It stopped hesitating and crawled out of its old, worn out shell to its possible new home, new pillar, new hope...
Dear friends.. put your past away.. do not be afraid to face up with it.. it's either a step to greets a better future.. or a step back in dwelling about the past.. do you hear me..?新的明天, 新的世界
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006
心中的一块大石终于放下啦..
sianx... felt quite relieved... but yet.. i am still quite worry though... JAE loh.. lolx.. me and HuB (aka Jie) complete the whole registration for it.. this time.. it's up to the school to take me or leave me.. heard from various np archer tt.. the 1st choice i chose is quite hard.. was it? hmm.. he said his gf study that.. and was currently assigned to a department managing cancer patient.. hmmm.. well.. i dunno.. but at least i got Pure Bio as base( though i didn't do well..*teeheehee*, at least i have got the knowledge as compared to those newbies without right?) haha... Nursing.. i've tried before during my St. John.. think it wun be much of a problem for me..
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Monday, February 13, 2006
it's the third day already.. i still cannot pick up the courage to make my move to JAE.. and i dun have much of the time as well.. i really felt very very stressed up.. what if i really never make it this time..? i was confused.. why is there ranking system? why is there criteria given?
i have had a great disappointment last year.. for i can't make my way to study the course i wanted.. though it's on the other end of Singapore.. that feeling.. is inexplicable.. and that's the first time i experienced real heart pain.. the failure of my appeal add on to my solemn thereafter.. and now.. it's one year after.. the thought of it still trembles me.. i can't afford another round of breakdown... what should i really do to help myself this time..?
Valentine is tomorrow.. i really dunno what to do or what to give... see Wendy do cross stitch.. see ping zhi do cross stitch and cookie... even Yimei also buy something for her "Ah-Lau".. though it costs $2 from daiso.. but... at least she's much more better off than me right..? i never buy anything for Jie.. Oops.. sadist.. lolx..
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Saturday, February 11, 2006
Valentine is near.. let me do a test on you people..
ask you people arh.. what would you choose if you were to choose chocolate candies outta so many selection..? what would your chocolate choice be..?
Coconut Cream..
Dark Chocolate..
Cashew Cluster..
Chocolate-Covered Expresso Beans..
Chocolate-Covered Mint..
Chocolate-Covered Cherries..
Dark Chocolate..
You have an expensive taste and enjoy finer things in life..
Cashew Cluster..
You're a little bit nutty and enjoy going wild with your friends..
Chocolate-Covered Expresso Beans..
You like life in fast lane, and don't believe in such a thing as too much caffenine..
Coconut Cream..
You have an exortic side and enjoy tropical getaways..
Chocolate-Covered Cherries..
You're a real sweetie inside out..
Chocolate-Covered Mint..
You're smooth with a cool sense of adventure..
and so.. what did you choose? i took the Chocolate-Covered Cherries.. coz it sounds good.. yummie... teeheehee.. think it disclose something about yourself.. ain't it..? =)
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Friday, February 10, 2006
well.. today marks another day of February... was rather down today.. and anxious.. and worried.. yeah.. i intend to opt for a course over at poly through JAE.. preferably Nursing or Business(again?!) why am i down..?! it's mostly because of some happenings during day time..
i went clementi NTUC to buy something today.. and i was being stalked by some hired personnel of the supermarket.. to catch shoplifters de lah.. it's like.. it's not the first time i am being stalked over there.. but what's wrong with wearing ite uniform and being an ite student..? does it says that every student from my college is considered someone suspicious..? i am sure that i am not the only person who share this fate.. much of my schoolmates might have experienced this.. ite student doesn't mean that we're rotten apples.. get it..? it's the society who used another view to gauge us.. which made us "rotten" this way.. we may appear so.. but we're not.. it's you people, who's rotten yourself.. rotten eyes.. rotten brain.. can't see the usefulness of ite students.. can't think of any contribution made by us to the society..
JAE starts today.. everyone is getting good results.. 99.9% of the student passed.. and the one who top the nation is some gal from cedar gals.. 9 freaking A(s)!! freak.. ain't it..? but it look so scary.. if everyone is scoring well.. then wouldn't the chance of me getting into poly be a lot more tougher..? slimer chance.. that "Her" is also getting into poly.. she drop JC.. and to poly.. heard it's Singapore poly's business related... wtf... but serve Her right for choosing JC though She know that it'd be very tough for her... 没有这么大的头,就不要戴这么大的帽子.. one vacancy wasted just like this.. i got no confidence to get into poly.. worry that history would repeat.. and i would land myself outta poly.. afraid that my wishlist would have another strike to it.. just so afraid.. but i dun wish to stay at ite.. on the other hand.. i dun wish to leave my classmates.. especially Wendy, Jason and Hammie.. my best buds around.. how nice if everyone shifted to Ngee Ann.. then i dun have to worry.. sianx..
moreover.. today.. i was panicking.. would i got myself into poly? how to register..? what's required? how to go through the admission? JAE or DAE? what's my SingPass account? what's my password? how to pay? what if i never get in? will i get in? will i get in? will i get in? questions just tumbled all over me.. i can hardly breathe.. too stressed up..
archery is giving me problems again.. i stayed throughout the 4 days( i intended).. to pay back those days and sets of archery shooting i missed out during my Thailand trip and Malaysia Trip.. and exams.. they still accounted me as absent from the sessions though i am away for these very very reasonable excuses.. i didn't mind that.. i pay it back.. but.. more demands from orange.. she wanna make me stay throughout the whole session, instead of finish shooting and leave.. if not.. my post as Secretary or admin personnel would be gone.. my CU(credit units) gone.. she's obviously abusing me using my CUs/contribution to tackle me.. and make me stay back.. it's like.. for thurs and fri.. those newbies would come, then setup for them.. then still must pack up for them.. keep all archery things.. but hey.. isn't it the responsibility of the newbies to setup their own thingy and keep themselves? even dogs also know how to dig out bone, mess with them, and keep it somewhere.. what is this..? trying to serve them meh? archery system is way too complex and messy.. why do i say that? meeting-in business course.. we're taught to inform everyone the location, time and watsoever before the next meeting.. be it during the last meeting or in between the period to next meeting.. for archery.. it's totally a different thing.. the meeting for example.. is decide on next day.. within a period of 24 hours.. dun tell me that there's no way for one to inform those involved.. even if she seen me on Sat and the meeting is on Sun.. i ask you all.. is there time for you to tell..? she see me at Sat.. didn't even tell me.. not even sms.. and the three weeks of absenteesm is due to valid reasons.. dun tell me i have to know at Thailand, Malaysia or even come down eventhough i know that the next day would be my exam.. it's damn fucking thing loh.. is it unreasonable..? even if i were to inform her, her phone were off for quite a number of times... what is she doing? what is she? happy happy then bother about archery thingy.. if not, off phone to prevent any disruption.. bitch.. i tell you.. no matter whether veggie eater is she or not.. care for animal, emphatized for dead lizards.. collect aluminium can's tabs for the disabled(it is said that if one collect a total of 500 tabs a disabled would get a free wheelchair..) or not.. her doings, her thinking, her behaviour her whatever.. is totally an irony from what she is in archery.. those orders she gave is totally inhuman.. must i stay for archery from 4pm-7pm during weekdays? must i stay from 8am-1pm++ during weekend at bedok? i am staying at choa chu kang.. mind you! not paya lebar(where i used to live..).... she is killing a big life over here.. i've got sch which end nearly 6 everyday.. right from morning.. plus archery on thursday and friday which will land me at 7.. suffering my weekend.. is that human? *she's considered as Advisor President.. higher ranking than President.. thatx why i have got no choice but to do bidding..
support the Anti-Orange(Oriana) Campaign.. please.. elyna needs your help.. save her from Rank abusal today.. please call 1900-SAVE-ELY..
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
twinkle, twinkle,
little star, how i wonder what you are.
believe, believe, believe,
you are the only star.
a long time ago
a little girl wanted to find her future.
she went to the mountains and asked the sky
"where's my future?"
and just then, a little star said
"sweetie, the future is in your hands!"
yes, the future is in our hands!
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twinkle, twinkle,
