Lost In Beauty-

Saturday, June 30, 2007

i miss..
@u having to wake up early and out at 5am, to send me all the way to archery ground.
@the days you piggy back me home. all the way up stairs, then door.
@those nights at yur house.
@our honeymoon periods.
@u whipping up nice meals that i'll never grow tired outta it.
@your surprises that will flick slight tears, coz they still touched me.
@you being panicky over my disappearance, safety and stuffs like that.
@our usual long conversation at evening.
@our very own 3 days 2 nights camp.
@our ite days.
@being the priority always.
@everything is me, and i'm everything.
@your roses.
@our love.
@you hugging me close in your arms tightly, over the long bus ride. i found security.

I miss you. right now.

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10 more days to my special days. woohoohoo.
i wish it's big with many many goodies & gifts.
i wish it small coz it's "oh well.. just another day".
i wish it's high profiled so i know everyone knows and care.
i wish it low-keyed so it's some quiet and private moment with hunnie.
i wish it's wild, so i cud have a crazy b'dae, cheering like nv before.
i wish it decently peaced, to prepare myself well for maturity.
i wish it's happening right now, cos i wanna know what's installed for me.
i wish it never to come, coz it's always greetings, cake and gifts.
i wish it's special & memorable.
i wish it's my absence that i dun have to fret over this here.

mybirthdaymybirthdaymybirthday
mybirthdaymybirthday

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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

went JEast Swimming Complex with hunnie and his bro, benjamin. lol. tanned not much. i'm working on it. =D

i'm very worn out. tired. nitey nite all!!

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Sunday, June 24, 2007

16th month! hunnie brought me to Vienna Internationals. woots!
lovey-dovey. =)

*pritty pritty pritty*

*snuggle snuggle snorkle*

cocktails, oysters, lobsters, carviars, mussels and many many goodies.

nothing can be as sweet as a kiss after dinner

earthquaking kiss. lol.

enamour.

24-06-07

eh.. everything is considered okae. i hate crocodile soup. eeeeukk.. and i don't look like doll. hurmph!

*the feelings are just as we first met.*

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

Love isn't finding someone u can live with,
it's finding someone you can't live without.

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Saturday, June 16, 2007

have you ever had the feeling for someone's pain and fear of death? it's when denial, isolation and reluctancy takes place. i saw that for one of the patient.
=in a confuse state.
=started not knowing where he is.
=Oxygen Saturation machine standing by.
=nurses taking his vital signs every single hour.
=blood transfusion; endless packets.
=staff nurses and medicated staffs starts shakin` their head lightly.
=non-rebreather mask that provides 100% oxygen; the extreme.
=doctors talking to family members; solemnly.
="should we resuscitate him or not? but he's in agony.."
the clock start ticking every seconds of his life. and i wonder what will be the next of him. but the answer is really obvious. i wouldn't be seeing him on monday. the bed would be occupied by someone new, who's not aware that he's lying on the deathbed of the previous occupant. i did not stay and see what happen. it's my knock off timing. what i derived, he wun make it to 12am.

post-mortem care isn't as simple as what u all may think. the staff nurses or enrolled nurse sheltered not much care to the corpse. flipped here and there, take off catheter, take off dressing and spread baby powder on them like mad spree. i don't mean fast, but it's handled recklessly. i felt the body with bare hands unintentionally when the nurse ask me to tape the bleeding wound at neck line. shockingly, the warm i feel is what running on us. that 37degree. but ECG done earlier shows no life signs; a straight beeping line. she's pronounced dead at 1335. i couldn't imagine if it's me, in old age and died like tt. i rather died at home or somewhere. just jab me dead. my second encounter with death, i stayed a little longer in the room, and i can't believe the next second my teammates and staff nurses are gone. i'm actually talking to her. telling her to go peacefully, to a better place without much agony from what she had used to suffer. i end with a smile, leaving her lying in the cold, hard room.
black kitten follows my bro all the way up, trying to get into our units. just when i am about to get home. been circulating me, and around my leg. mum, force shut the door. it's should-be faint angelic cry, is way too different. i could hear even when i'm at room talking to hunnie. out of no choice, mum agreed tt i'd sent it down. i suggest bringing it to it's mother. down there, i saw one cat, unsured. the cat hissed at kitten; in attack mode. they had a mere fight, but broke off by me. there's something i couldn't explain about the kitten. it behaved and fought just as equivalent to an adult cat(in disguise?!). there's something in the way it look at me. just inexplicable. the dead, the black kitten. seemed signifying something. i am not afraid.

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Friday, June 15, 2007

i woke up to hunnie's morning call again. thanks a lot. if not i'll be waking up late. he's been nice. and you better stay this way to me yea? whipped up something filling for hunnie and me early before coming out. didn't know he's on his way for me to fetch me to hospital. so cute of him to order for a heart-shape sunny-side up on his own accord(he think it's a cafeteria). after attachment, he send me back.*sighz* i gonna missed these days so much.
it's been a so called "busy" ward when i'm practically finding something to do outta nothing. make bed, assist others or check got anything to do or not. yay. and ite junior says i'm hardworking. woow. previous attachment's CI said i've changed. appearance wise. tsktsktsk. i'm flattered. ahaha.

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Thursday, June 14, 2007

jason came to my blog before going. how touched i could be. don't worry jason, if ya hurt tell me, i'll be yur personal medic okae? ahaha.. then i'll bashed whoever for you. you are going botak!!*zwank zwank* all the best my dear. =")

P.S and remember to get your way back.

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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

he's going in 1mth ="(

jason is going in 2days *wAaAahh*

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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

wOo.. what to do... he's going in soon. jason.. & everyone too.. wAahh.. sadded.. tomorrow meeting wEndY, jaSon & people for fantastic 4, after my attachment.. teeheehee.. look forward to it.. miss everyone so, so much. muackies!!

speaking bout my attachment, i'm so bored out.. assigned to B2 side of the ward with Harry, Nurul, Aini, Liffong, while some of the girls are on A or B1 area.. life wasn't as easy when you've got hours of fretting over on how to spend your full 8 hours as me. same goes for others. ite students took up partial of the simple tasks, leaving us mostly empty-headed and dunno what to do.. the parameters taking and charting are all so mess up. you wouldn't know who's chart you need to chart down. i leave it that to the PCA and ite students. i suppose they know though. bathing of the patient; my room's patients are mostly self-ambulating. sponging of those who's immobile & serving diet, leave it to ite student. their teacher wanna assess them. see, so carefree. but you cannot sit down, unless breaktime. and wound cleansing, dressing, or injections don't come by often. someone just jab me with Anesthetic and put me to sleep please. i gonna drop dead to bed now. nitey all!!

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Saturday, June 09, 2007

hEy u! oNe fEmaLe bLogsTaLkeR & one fEmaLe gHost! I RULE AND U DON'T, GET IT. fancy coming to my blog, bet'cha like mY bLog lots huh! aNd dUn u cOpy mY sTuFfs, sIckO!
nOw that i know, ghost dun only wear white. mAybe bRight pEach.
*you disgust me alot*
i am Vicious, so run for your life. rRaAarRrHhh~!!

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Thursday, June 07, 2007

day one of Common Test i nearly faint coz i lack of sleep and eat. go by train as i dun wanna be late, and wanna settled myself for everything first. travel from cck, and the moment i reached JE platform, i felt myself closing my eyes. and whole world start swirling. i opened my eyes, in time to rein myself back to stable standing. i nearly caused a tragic of a woman, plunging down the track and smashed by train, with her not knowing what pushes her from the back. my face will definitely be smeared across the news headline. woohoo.. how close.. pHarMaco is such a killer. the drug names spells abc, what i could see is stars, stars & stars.. NSL didn't study. planned to study only after pharmacology paper. hours of break. tsk. day two, i gonna fail my Biostatistic, stupidly tough man. fail one. Nursing Science 1 and Nuring Science 2, i dun wish to talk about it. maybe results will show everything. lolx.

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Sunday, June 03, 2007

gOoOooOd LuCks, eVeRyOne~!!!

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Saturday, June 02, 2007

more like PRETENTIOUS-lady to me.
and stop chickening your way out like a loser wimp.

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