Wednesday, November 30, 2005
LONELY..
oh yeah..~! i had been the hosteress of the house for yesterday... lolx.. my mum and dad had been out since 6.. and it's not very usual of them to got out of house this early.. it feels so carefree.. and they had not been out together, leaving me and my bros in the house before.. both of the bros were still busily snoring away.. zZzZz..~ they were out to buy the railway ticket to malaysia.. the trip over to Selangor for the oncoming chinese new year... duhx... speaking of chinese new year.. my head began to ache.. i was wondering what to buy for the festive season.. something simple yet sophisticated.. not too elaborate, cooling but not revealing.. i still CAN't FIND~!!! not only chinese new year.. there's also christmas which add on to the pain... any suggestion..? aww... where's my pressie..? haha... i dun celebrate much, and had never had a real celebration.. never in my life through.. so i wasn't really sure.. i'll be spending it with him.. hopefully nothing cropped up that day.. and as for today.. i've just got informed that the trip over to thailand had changed to 14,15,16 & 17 of January instead of 5-7 of January.. from three days, it increased to four days.. though it'll be an enjoying trip (i suppose...).. but i simply can't bear to leave you here in singapore.. it's four days.. F O U R... FOUR whole days you know..? haix... duh.. if only i can strunk you in to a mini... haha.. mini me..~! lol.. then i can bring you over to Bankok... oh man.. but it's just my fantasy... so sorry.. but i only have to leave you here.. sorry.. but i have to leave you lonely... sorry... but i have to leave in such a jiffy... sorry.. but i have to leave you while you're in your exam.. busily scribbling and cramming your exam perhaps.. i'll miss ya.. and i already was...
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Thursday, November 24, 2005
Dummy cRamPs..
Cramp-attack... brrr... i will be got over by cramps very soon... intolerable...
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005
I AM AGEING OFF... SAVE ME~!
i am barely wasting my time.. my life in school.. it's so boring.. and the time table for the current semester is gonna be a tough one.. i'll be having my lesson till six from monday to thursday.. with Business Communication(BCM) as the ending lesson.. moreover.. we were told that the teacher for BCM is one of the teacher, who's very very typical about the time, punctuality and the attendance of students in school.. good game.. anyway.. there will be 4-5 subjects to be studied.. there's Entrepreneurship(ETP), Advance Information Technology(AIT), Web Publishing(WPB), Sports and Wellness1(SW1) and BCM.. AIT and WPB.. sounds impressive... but you should know.. i am an complete IT and computer idioit.. it's gonna be a challenge for me.. hard one... Brr... SW1.. okay.. nothing much.. except for a change for teacher.. it'd be a female.. but i still prefer mr cheng.. sianx... o.O.. ETP... even more frustrating.. it's a subject chosen by student.. and i mention.. CHOSEN.. C H O S E N! by STUDENT.. duhx.. i should be studying HR thingy.. or Banking and Finance thingy... but! but.. i dunno why.. god damn dunno what am i doing in ETP.. the whole class too.. most of the people choosen Banking and finance as one of their core subjects.. for the form teacher told us that ETP is a very tough subject which consist of whole bloody tonnes of memorizations and requires a lot of T I M E involvement.. duhx.. out of the three choices, wendy and i were required to choose only two.. never to mention... it's definitely gonna be HR and Banking.. F-up... man.. what am i doing in bloody ETP...?!! shithole.. -_-" ... having menses.. PMS.. can't blame.. haha.. that explains why i am raging out of blue.. lolx..
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Friday, November 18, 2005
<-ARCHERY--<<<
i've been waiting for everyone to come.. i thought, orange, as the chairperson, would have been very punctual.. to my disappointment, everyone was late.. where's punctuality? where's discipline? where's her passion? i don't see any... not anymore.. sitting my myself on one of the benches, i felt an overwhelming sense of lifeless and drained.. intended to leave right after a good 30 minutes of stoneing around.. the first one came.. 1025.. good game.. 5 minutes before.. dummy.. why wouldn't he come after i am gone..? duhz.. so that if orange asked why am i not present today, i would be able to discredit her that i've had waited 30minutes, in front of coach.. so that she would know that it wasn't my fault for being absent.. the school is empty anyway.. anyone would have thought that there's no school or archery.. and okay.. there's no other possible way than to resume archery as usual, on a boring friday morning.. Yimei, the class chairman, then called.. quested me about my results.. for she needed to jot it down and sumit to our teacher.. and oh yes.. she got 3.. F-up.. all B.. she said tt, we need at least 3.6 to get to poly's second year.. if not, it'd be first year for us.. the conversation ensued me with a blackened grumpy face.. the rest of the cca-mates also converse about their GPA thingy.. some did worse than me.. but still, it aggrevated me.. i sulked, and was reticent throughout the whole practice.. i complete two full sets before anyone do.. and before the rain comes.. it came nicely after i went shelter.. if not, i gonna get drenched yet and again.. and eventually, i went home pensively...
STUDY STUDY STUDY!! GAMBATTEH~!
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Thursday, November 17, 2005
MY DREAM...
okay... was damn sadded with yesterday's chain of stupid happenings.. haix.. i was woken up by a dream.. i dreamt of picking up a ten dollar note somewhere.. the whole part of the episode of the dream, i only remember tt i found a ten bucks.. thatx the main thing.. and i woke up.. thought it'd just be another day.. met him up.. thought he'd be early as usual.. so.. i left at 7... it was raining.. and despite mum's advice.. i dun bring brolly.. thinking that i am a super woman, i brave through the rain.. 20% drenched.. lucky me.. haha.. ok.. no one was there, thinking that something would have cropped up, i wait then... was then that he messaged.. directing me to the other bus stop.. grumbling deep down.. 2nd time under the rain for the day.. reached... it's still early again.. so we went back to the original venue.. 3RD TIME.. suddenly, headache attacked me.. was getting dizzy a lil.. i wasn't even aware of the oncoming dull-red car.. it was a close shave, i went before it come.. i didn't even turn back to look at him.. thereafter.. we took buses to his sch.. upon reaching, we climbed up the tiring stairs.. something reddish orange greets me.. it's a TEN dollar... holy shit~! TEN DOLLAR.. SGD!!! oh my.. god finally gave me something as a remedy for yesterday's sorrowful plight of me.. Awww.. how sweet of Him.. hmm.. "dreams come true".. (*^_^*).. alright.. then gave Jie to do the safe keeping.. we spent it after then.. guesses that the whoever who lost it, will be crying bitterly.. but i hope he/she wun mind.. hehe.. well.. there's something in chinese.. "Po Cai Xiao Zai".. Losing money to void any oncoming disasters.. well.. but i Thank him/her lah.. to think i get something i dreamt.. it's unbelievable.. and i guess.. the headache went a lil better thereafter.. why not be there, a whole stack of ten bucks..?! i think i will be flying around and my headache will no longer come and haunt me.. wun it be great..? weee...~ >.<
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005
A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS
Morning
meet him. mum nag. late. he waited long. sat down. suspected menses. SHIT. nvm. board bus. BLOODY. nvm. got down. to 7-11. Laurier Super Slimguard. $5.80. expensive. to mac toilet. check. no stain. wipe. MENSES. nvm. pad measured. 30cm long. 15cm wide. ok. back for 184. sent him. last seen him. nvm. see his sis then. tot late. nvm. take mrt. 0943. she's not late. i early. wait. nvm. dun mind. take mrt. blur. wrong direction. she remind me. thank god. to westmall. too early. nvm. buy tickets. walk. sit down. talk. time's up. to movie. four people. 2 pairs of gals. mutters & mumbles. popcorn. ice tea. popcorn. ice tea. full bladder. bear it. show end. pack up. ring drop. SHITHOLE. find up & down. finally. phew. relieved. walk. walk. talk. talk. lunch. small serving. full. sent her. see cats. she came. 300. LRT. he called. play tricks. he knows. not fun. FINE. 184. to convention hall. parted.
Later
i left. can't find phone & ez-link. panic. i search. nothing. i freak. nvm. use coins. wrong bus direction. get down. walk. search. search. search. walked 200/300m. i found. -.-". inside stupid hole. bus stop far away. keep walking. walk. walk. walk. another 400m. frustrated. keep cursing bag. 172. reached destination. pouring rain. FUCK. nvm. home. 1830. mum blah (x3). nvm. ignore. black face. on com. slowcoach. DAMN. blog. friendster. msn. no one. FORGET IT. off com. dinner. wait for him to sms. SIGHZ. check bill. $76.70. SUCKS. stunned. wendy called. abt archery. abt results. panicked. check. darn com. uber slow. found. calculate. 60 over %. low morale. sleep. can't sleep. 0134. slept. DARN.
To Conclude: My Bag's A Jerk!! Shit It..
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Monday, November 14, 2005
D I S A P P O I N T M E N T.. let's just spell disappointment to end off the night... efforts to go down the drain..
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
someone paddled and nearly fall.. oh my... thatx so comical.. i wasn't trying to make fun of it lah.. but it's one of the few times i remember him being rather different.. hehe.. cute.. hmm... coz i am always the one who nearly fall.. it's so rare to see him like this.. and he "paddled" at very inhuman speed.. oh my god.. haha.. haix.. he's not superman or what lah.. he's still human.. human...... have the ability to invent the powerful and indestructibles.. but they are fragile too.. they only live for a few decades and die off.. and they can be ruined by their very own inventions.. duhx.. earthlings.. born to create, to destruct mother nature and wait for death to come.. *deng si* -.-" okae.. i sound alien... betta stop it.. been rather cynic recently.. duhx.. mood's going down... deep inside my heart, you're still my superman.. standing tall and strong.. braving storms with me.. there will be sunny days after storm.. a beautiful future awaits and paint for us.. be with me.. =)
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Saturday, November 12, 2005
Friendship..
guess what.. i stumbled upon this book called "When Friendship Hurts: How to Deal with Friends Who Betray, Abandon, or Wound You ".. on webby.. hand's itching.. wanna click onto the link.. but.. better not to do anything.. hate her for good.. there's no such thing as unbreakable friendship.. there's nothing like indeterioratable friendship.. it will corrode and gone sooner or later.. it's like a crystalball.. once it's broken or have numerous cracks (tensions and quarrels).. it's no longer consider valuable friendship.. moreover, no one can predict what came out of a reliable and close friendship.. it'll backfires sometimes.. i am not saying that there's no friendship.. yes there is.. but there would be times when one dun get what each other want, or why things was done this way or that way.. there would still be one on the losing side or there would still be one who's unsatisfied with one another.. there would still be one who've been letting the other one down.. it's vice-versa..it's kharma.. it's vicious cycle..
Archery..
it seems like it's another real-life tv shit.. it's like the infamous Survivor Series.. Each week.. there would be someone wanting to quit.. had it not for the Arrows and the GPA system thingy(the sum of money).. no one would have been that stupid enough to suffer these craps... winners never quit.. quitters never win.. it sounds logical.. thatx an extract from my friend's msn nick.. dunno why.. i've been singing to myself.. "i'm so tired of being here.." evananscence, my immortal.. really tired of training.. really tired of seeing people leave one another.. tired of the scorching sun.. tired of having to travel.. tired of the upcoming competition.. eventhough it have not start yet.. friday.. would often land me weary and teary.. people from committee left one by one.. i dunno if Orange is worried or not.. but i know i am.. of having to close it down.. of having to see those who still wanna come for archery, disappointed.. i am worry of them having to brood where to go after the close down.. worry of them being given up by archery.. if those who left wasn't happy with Orange or Coach.. please.. have the foesight to see.. Orange will be gone in 6 months time.. we can turn deaf ears to her right after she's out of school.. the one who will be holding the baton will be Ernest.. a much better choice for chairperson.. just bear with it and go for regular practices and keep quiet.. thatx what we can do.. as for the coach.. he might be kick away.. and in the verge of being replace.. that is what people been rumouring about.. trust me.. haix..
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Friday, November 11, 2005
i am really confused.. how should i really go about it..? i find it hard to explain to my other cca-mates.. and i dun feel like telling them.. i dun want to lower the morale of the rest of the people.. what happened today, has definitely made me utterly disappointed.. another two seniors gone for good.. blame it on Orange then.. i was driven close to tears when they start packing up their own things and hand over the bows one after another.. these two seniors had been rather close with me.. they wud talk to me every now and then.. they are real good archers and mentors.. it hurts me so to see them go away just like that.. i am afraid that i will just shut myself up, they bring laughter and will talk to me during archery.. one of them is our captain, and the other, a quartermaster.. let me brief through... morning, curtis came.. follow by mr neo not long after.. tt mr neo ask about our opinion of whether changing weekend's practice to weekdays is fine with us or not.. both of us is fine with tt(and deep down my heart, i was already partying~!).. he gave a task to curtis: ask the rest of the cca-mates on whether changing it to weekdays is fine with them or not, coz usually archery burned away our weekends, making us very fatigue and cannot concentrate on the following monday.. and the poll is.. among 9 people who came for archery today(i know it's pathetic!).. 7 people is fine with that.. and the other 2 is Orange and her guy.. but he never asked them.. of coz they would stand against us.. Orange is the Chairman.. and no doubt she would oppose to tt.. never to mention her guy.. he would be in dead meat if he were to stand at our side.. so curtis just presume so.. and he told mr neo when archery is about to end.. later after that.. the coach came.. they held a discussion somewhere in the P.E room, away from us.. minutes after.. Orange came out.. follow by coach and mr neo respectively.. mr neo approached curtis and ted.. somewhat chatting happily.. coach then drive home.. say nothing much.. and he seem alright.. i thought nothing happened.. carry on packing.. not long after.. Orange stopped all.. right after she received a call from coach.. she raged up, and very very obviously de hint everyone tt there's two stupid people complain to mr neo about the tough training.. very directly de shooting "arrows" at curtis and ted.. keep on looking at them while scolding.. "if you all can't commit yourself to archery/if you all can't come for archery this saturday or sunday, irregardless of whether you need to work or need to got to other's birthday party/chalet or whatever shit, go ahead and hand over the bow to me..~"she said, pointing/looking at them.. "and moreover, i had mentioned to you earlier before that, i need people who is commited.. and you all keep giving me this kinda shit, cannot come because of these or that.. i don't care whether your dog sick or your cat sick.. just stop giving me these problems until i pass out, can or not! if you all want to quit, go ahead.. i will still get my cca points.." and she blabbered on..*blah blah blah blah blah* " and if you all find yourself not suitable or feel like quitting, just pass your bow to me and leave~! ANYONE..?!".. curtis said, give him 5 minutes to think about it.. and the next moment i know, curtis start taking out his things.. i thought it's only curtis.. was then that i realized ted is taking out his things as well.. i thought he's just trying to pack up.. till i came in to conscious.. he's leaving as well.. i turned away.. tears flooded my eyes.. but never rolled out.. who to be blame..? Coach, for fuming after such small matter.. Orange, for not using her words appropriately and her for not seeing the clear picture of the whole thing? her guy, KwangYi, for not stopping her and keep on letting her be this 'over-subjective' and sacarstic over such trivial matters.. ted and curtis for not being able to tolerate her and all her craps.. the rest of us, for keeping quiet? mr neo, for being so busybody and over concerning?? and those who left us, for lowering our morale after leaving one by one, causing the rest to get tempted to leave? i dunno whether should i or should i not tell the recreational members or wendy or hamzah or jason or not.. i dun want to release these news to cause shock among evryone.. Orange.. really dunno how to make those who left earlier on, to stay.. if people keep on going and going at this rate.. archery will close down in no time.. i dun wish to see them getting away just like this.. i dun wish that archery will closed down just like this.. it's a lose-lose situation for everyone.. we've contribute so much of our time, got so tanned(i am baked!), strained ourselves up, travel such long distant, getting up so early.. we've sure lost alot of things.. what makes the rest of us stay, is the arrows.. we bought it with our own money, $100 over is not a joke.. there's no bonding within archery as well.. i am totally disappointed at it.. i promised myself later in the afternoon.. not to cry, not to cry.. but i just can't help it.. it's so embarrassing to duck myself into Jie and shedding tears in MRT.. i am still sad..
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Thursday, November 10, 2005
okie.. as mentioned.. a peculiar darling of mine.. fixed my com.. and what..? i got reasons to come back and blog and chat again.. awww... love him lots... must thank him.. keke.. no him= no com= no blog= no entry to see.. get it..? saviour.... i love you~! thanks for doing this much for me..
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005
All these precious moments,
with you by my side,
must be a gift from heaven,
tat's holding me all night.
I don't know how I found you,
But I'm thinking tat I have you;
a love so true, to hold, to keep, to share...
In my heart, I can no longer hold all of the love I used to hide..
I'll always be with you until the end of time,
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be,
you are my life, my soul, my guy
and through it all I knew,
tat you've come to see tat you're the one till the end.
Many said we wouldn't last,
Hubby, I'm gonna make them see that we've found our way back home..
We'll always be, till the end...
Love you..
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005
w.o.r.d.l.e.s.s..... er... er... erm... haix...
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