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Friday, February 10, 2006

well.. today marks another day of February... was rather down today.. and anxious.. and worried.. yeah.. i intend to opt for a course over at poly through JAE.. preferably Nursing or Business(again?!) why am i down..?! it's mostly because of some happenings during day time..

i went clementi NTUC to buy something today.. and i was being stalked by some hired personnel of the supermarket.. to catch shoplifters de lah.. it's like.. it's not the first time i am being stalked over there.. but what's wrong with wearing ite uniform and being an ite student..? does it says that every student from my college is considered someone suspicious..? i am sure that i am not the only person who share this fate.. much of my schoolmates might have experienced this.. ite student doesn't mean that we're rotten apples.. get it..? it's the society who used another view to gauge us.. which made us "rotten" this way.. we may appear so.. but we're not.. it's you people, who's rotten yourself.. rotten eyes.. rotten brain.. can't see the usefulness of ite students.. can't think of any contribution made by us to the society..

JAE starts today.. everyone is getting good results.. 99.9% of the student passed.. and the one who top the nation is some gal from cedar gals.. 9 freaking A(s)!! freak.. ain't it..? but it look so scary.. if everyone is scoring well.. then wouldn't the chance of me getting into poly be a lot more tougher..? slimer chance.. that "Her" is also getting into poly.. she drop JC.. and to poly.. heard it's Singapore poly's business related... wtf... but serve Her right for choosing JC though She know that it'd be very tough for her... 没有这么大的头,就不要戴这么大的帽子.. one vacancy wasted just like this.. i got no confidence to get into poly.. worry that history would repeat.. and i would land myself outta poly.. afraid that my wishlist would have another strike to it.. just so afraid.. but i dun wish to stay at ite.. on the other hand.. i dun wish to leave my classmates.. especially Wendy, Jason and Hammie.. my best buds around.. how nice if everyone shifted to Ngee Ann.. then i dun have to worry.. sianx..

moreover.. today.. i was panicking.. would i got myself into poly? how to register..? what's required? how to go through the admission? JAE or DAE? what's my SingPass account? what's my password? how to pay? what if i never get in? will i get in? will i get in? will i get in? questions just tumbled all over me.. i can hardly breathe.. too stressed up..

archery is giving me problems again.. i stayed throughout the 4 days( i intended).. to pay back those days and sets of archery shooting i missed out during my Thailand trip and Malaysia Trip.. and exams.. they still accounted me as absent from the sessions though i am away for these very very reasonable excuses.. i didn't mind that.. i pay it back.. but.. more demands from orange.. she wanna make me stay throughout the whole session, instead of finish shooting and leave.. if not.. my post as Secretary or admin personnel would be gone.. my CU(credit units) gone.. she's obviously abusing me using my CUs/contribution to tackle me.. and make me stay back.. it's like.. for thurs and fri.. those newbies would come, then setup for them.. then still must pack up for them.. keep all archery things.. but hey.. isn't it the responsibility of the newbies to setup their own thingy and keep themselves? even dogs also know how to dig out bone, mess with them, and keep it somewhere.. what is this..? trying to serve them meh? archery system is way too complex and messy.. why do i say that? meeting-in business course.. we're taught to inform everyone the location, time and watsoever before the next meeting.. be it during the last meeting or in between the period to next meeting.. for archery.. it's totally a different thing.. the meeting for example.. is decide on next day.. within a period of 24 hours.. dun tell me that there's no way for one to inform those involved.. even if she seen me on Sat and the meeting is on Sun.. i ask you all.. is there time for you to tell..? she see me at Sat.. didn't even tell me.. not even sms.. and the three weeks of absenteesm is due to valid reasons.. dun tell me i have to know at Thailand, Malaysia or even come down eventhough i know that the next day would be my exam.. it's damn fucking thing loh.. is it unreasonable..? even if i were to inform her, her phone were off for quite a number of times... what is she doing? what is she? happy happy then bother about archery thingy.. if not, off phone to prevent any disruption.. bitch.. i tell you.. no matter whether veggie eater is she or not.. care for animal, emphatized for dead lizards.. collect aluminium can's tabs for the disabled(it is said that if one collect a total of 500 tabs a disabled would get a free wheelchair..) or not.. her doings, her thinking, her behaviour her whatever.. is totally an irony from what she is in archery.. those orders she gave is totally inhuman.. must i stay for archery from 4pm-7pm during weekdays? must i stay from 8am-1pm++ during weekend at bedok? i am staying at choa chu kang.. mind you! not paya lebar(where i used to live..).... she is killing a big life over here.. i've got sch which end nearly 6 everyday.. right from morning.. plus archery on thursday and friday which will land me at 7.. suffering my weekend.. is that human? *she's considered as Advisor President.. higher ranking than President.. thatx why i have got no choice but to do bidding..

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