Friday, September 29, 2006
i feel like shouting... will someone help me with my blog thingy~~ tsk.. the new blog's date header and entry couldn't be displayed.. grrrreeeaaatt.. i've been stoning in front of the com to figure it out for two days.. okok.. i am thinking of doing up a new blogskin.. but i am only one more step to success.. enlighten me..
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Monday, September 25, 2006
holiday maybe holiday.. but it's definitely a boring one without much outing organized during the vacation.. i am practically slacking at home, facing the big wide screen blogging here.. there's something cocky with the modem or com inside my study room.. had no choice but to shift it here and there, run tests.. trail and errors with another com outside... and yes! i am swarming the blog with my words.. but the connection gonna break again soon.. damn.. i wonder what spell my bro had cast on it.. coz it happens after he use it two days back.. shyt him.. and he don't touch it now.. something fishy eh..? guilty creep.. its only first week, first day of my holiday.. i wonder how am i gonna survive the rest.. hunnie is playing his golf now.. informing me in a short notice.. asking i wanna go or not.. i knew the answer is straight away a no.. mum wun allow me to go out so frequently either.. "Out = Shopping = Spending $" .... and blah blah blah.. ahaha.. sighz... no life no life.. *protest* tsk... i wonder what to do when i won't be working, won't have income, won't be going out as often.. i don't wanna sit around and be a crouch potato.. lolx.. above all.. i dun wanna put on weigh! sianx..
Anniversary.. went hunnie's house yesterday.. bought him Jay's dvd and cd with a cutie scratch card.. die.. gonna do up a picnic as promise.. i wonder what to do with it.. lolx.. would he do it if it's me who scratch the card? teeheehee.. loiter in his room while waiting for him to get ready to go out.. messy.. tsk... and oh ya! i took my weigh.. it's around 48-49kg for me.. and with a +1kg's zero error.. which means.. i am either 47 or 48kg.. how nice.. last week i took it while in my ward.. it's 50.5.. lolx.. a significant 2.5kg lost.. i am on my way to a slimmer eLy.. haha..
haix.. oh hurry hurry home my love..
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Friday, September 22, 2006
yes.. attachment has ended.. somehow i feel lost when everything comes to an end just like this.. why? i feel my world has become lighter somehow.. maybe it's what people say.. lighten up of burden.. i was exuberant.. yet a little couldn't bear to leave the patients behind.. i visited one of the rooms in the ward.. saw a couple of my npmates teared.. can tell they are obligated to the patients.. i went to one of the granny whom i always help with Catherine.. for toileting(Catherine is too small size; no strength to ambulate granny, then i assist..).. what to do? my room is nearest to toilet anyway.. luyun can't even carry an "ant" without "motivation"(teacher).. lolx.. granny cried.. saying that i'm nice and caring and lotsa mushy stuffs.. it somehow touched my heart.. i could feel her sense of helplessness and powerlessness to her diagnosis and with us leaving.. eventually, i follow the sobbing phenomenon too.. the goodbye session gradually turned into a crying session.. Catherine and crowd came congregating around too console her too.. while they are in a fit of weeping and conversing.. i turned around.. i saw two or three other grannies and aunties shredding tears inconsolably.. o.O" stunning eh..
i left the saddening place and back to my room.. yikes.. saw one of the uncle weeping too.. brr.. *heart soften*.. but still have to leave.. ultimately, i bide everyone goodbye.. lots of thoughts went through my mind.. wondering this and that.. would patients be well-taken care of.. would the staff nurse cater to their needs within shortwhile.. coz after we left.. there's definitely, loss of huge manpower.. what's more? most of the senior staff nurse or staff nurse is from china and philippines.. who will understand hokkien, cantonese, teochew or even malay? i pity patients somehow..
P.S: i still didn't manage to kick luyun's butt.. i forgotten..
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Thursday, September 21, 2006
tomorrow's gonna be my very very last day..
happy.. weet~
i miss my phone and my hunnie now..
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
you know.. lately uncle pauL had started his own public blog.. he could spend time on it ytd, without minding i am on my bed waiting for his call.. waited from 12 till 
!! so devoted.. grr.. gonna punch him.. lolx.. (thatx impossible of coz.. i wouldn't hurt an ant.. ahaha... ^-^)
sighz.. but to think of it.. he's not really the one i should punch.. it's lu yun.. someone who's assigned to partner me in my ward's room; room 24.. she can make me do all those labour task.. eg; she can't ambulate the patients or shift the patient from chair to bed or otherwise.. i am frequently the tool to lubricate her way through.. just because she's thin & frail.. zzzz.. however i came to see the irony of it when there's the presence of our clinical facilitator; the lecture who will be sticking with us throughout the 1-mth-attachment.. miraculously, i saw her shifting patient on one fine day.. she worked wonders ain't it? so nice that i happened to pass by.. * i gonna shred her into pieces* i felt so cheated.. shouldn't have help her.. i admit that she more competence when it comes to skills.. but she's like plain shyt to me now.. brrr.. more to come.. when it comes to the legendary Pamper-wars.. the patients need us to change diapers, i ask her to prepare.. she prepared as told.. next moment, she asked the ite student or PCA (patient care assistant) to do.. smart move right? sly to me.. ytd.. i happened to saw her walking a female patient to toilet, she told me the patient gonna do big business.. then i thought nothing much what.. i say.. then get her to do it lah.. i was stuck to her job when she say.. she gonna go do big business too.. and scampered to staff toilet.. breaktime.. everyone enjoys.. i don't.. coz when she's in the first break, she would disappear into thin air at the dot, and hacked off my 10 minutes, when i am at the second.. by the time i went down and up with my packed food.. it's already another 10 minutes.. eat another 10 minutes.. left a 15 minutes to spend.. what to do? sleep? not enough.. sit around? too packed in the staff room.. i have nowhere to go but back to my ward.. at times she'd switch break with me.. by the time i came back, i came back 5 minutes before.. and she's nowhere to be found.. what a nurse.. making patients bed is the most basic.. but she could stand around talking, when i am making the bed alone.. i've been doing most of the things for patients.. i dun think she did.. stand around talking.. who can't do it? i know patients would be happy and consoled.. but don't she have to help me too..? only when in front of teacher.. hypocrites.. sighz.. i'm left with 4 more days.. such a long time to go.. get her off me.. kick her butt as soon as i knocked off at the very last day..
I'LL DO WHATEVER I LIKE.. dun regret for making the wrong move..
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Aasta..
Yes.. it's been 5yrs.. and i still miss you so..
I hope that you're somewhere happy and blessed..
I don't know where are you now, but may God always be with you..
loves eLy..
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