Lost In Beauty-

Saturday, December 16, 2006

i am so bored at home.. i finished my attachment yesterday.. really tired.. coz of all the standing and rushing everywhere in the ward.. i wonder how i gonna cope if i were to be a real nurse after graduating.. i can't help but kept smiling to myself when i came to think of certain things.. finally.. CI(clinical instructor) told us that she wun give A or A+ coz it's considered perfect, she finds that no one in our standard should receive such good grades, if not when it came to the next attachment, the next CI would have lofty expectation on us.. and if we dun perform as what they expect then, the grading system would definitely be misleading.. this, i find that it really makes sense.. and i dun expect too high grade already.. since the previous attachment is very very demoralizing.. (heard that, miss siti?) *tsk tsk tsk* but when it came to individual interviewing and assessing of each students, i am getting a little nerve of it.. coz before i went in i heard that it's arranged by percentage scored.. and everyone got their log books back already lah.. still left me and the other girl.. i began to have quick flashes of myself drowned in scores and grading system.. terrible.. heavy footsteps i took crunches every single bits of my heart, i wish i could just drop dead there without knowing the result, at least it'll be better.. it really stop pounding for a few moments when the log book revealed a bloody B+!!! oh my god times a thousand times.. i peeped at the score sheet, i am the second or third.. weet! i was jumping and screaming at top of my voice inside.. finally i've made it! aha! and LY got B.. hmm.. i suppose you all know who's LY.. *shh*

i've done the skills when there is a need, when help is needed.. (i am so obedient >.<") i've eat snake quite alot.. toilet and tea room.. just hid somewhere to message hunnie or arrange my hair whenever possible.. coz i nv put hair moisturizer recently.. thatx why it's messy..

and.. i've always been a blur sotong.. last day already, i actually serve the wrong diet.. the one who's normal, i gave porridge.. the one having dysphagia i gave mee tai bak.. how to eat it when one's having dysphagia?? i only realize when after that normal patient consumed a mouthful of porridge.. can't possibly exchange in front of them le right? haiya.. stupid me.. lucky the dysphagic patient de daughter never held anything against me.. i got ask whether she wanna have it instead since she say her father dun eat much for lunch.. and she say she's vegetarian.. "how about buying the porridge as compensation?" ... "it's okae, my dear" she ends everything with a perfect smile.. thank god so much.. i am saved..

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