Lost In Beauty-

Friday, August 31, 2007

27 August 07 - 14th September 07

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Have a shot of 'Love', and get well soon. =)

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Thursday, August 30, 2007

I WANNA Samsung U600I & ~~Fluff Wallet(i don't care.. i gonna buy this!!)!!!~~

BOUGHT!

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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

yay! i've got back from my attachment.. this time it's orthopedic ward.. ranging from fractures, spine injuries to diabetic & dirty wounds.. sounds busy huh..? ya right.. busy in the sense of nth to do busy walking in & out, from rooms to rooms.. ttx what we do.. the most nth-to-do room of all the attachments i had been to so far.. serious.. i'm not joking.. whole day, all we know is to stare at the clock to strike 3pm/9pm.. coz lotsa stuffs are being dutied by the staff nurses & enrolled nurses.. seemed they dont really need us leh.. not only us lah.. but ite colleagues as well.. we started on the same day..

i wonder why i cant breathe lately.. even not on rainy day, my nose is stuck. shit it.

i'm in female cubicles.. *cheers* all aunties seemed so "sweet-natured". except for one.. first day, i dunno why she hurdled nice vulgarites whenever people pass the entrance. an agitated and violent old woman. there's not even a soft spot for being polite. she'd curse and swear and spit and everything! not on me lah.. i pity Emily (ite nurse who's in the same cubicle with me), yea.. she got it from her.. irritating.. so rude of her..

there's one with the steel support on her arm. damn gross. the steel thingy is pierced into the arm & around the elbow area. cant move her much. i can't imagine if i got fracture or fall & end up like this.
there's one who will ask u to eat all her stuffs; even meals, saying tt she dont need it, old pple dying soon blahblahblah.. and oh ya! medication also ask u to eat.. say it's invigorating.. say it's tonic medicines.. she dont need.. etc.. of coz i must say a whole mountains of white lies to get her into eating.. tsk..
there's one who's so sweet together with her ex-lawyer husband.. 70++ close to 80 already.. the husband, be it rain or shine.. would definitely come to keep her company.. (oh! so nice!! ^.^) sleep also sit beside and sleep, talk to her when she's bored.. be her 'memo' when asked & she cant recall her last medication time.. how i wish my husband would be like that too.. except for that hospitalizing part lah.. who wants to go hospital anyway.. i read her casenotes, she suffered a fall while doing usual walk with her husband.. shows.. the husband isnt those who will only be so caring when the other half is ill or injured.. eh.. just a flash of thoughts: i hope it's not due to the husband ogling at young girls and didnt pay attention to her OR he kick her down the slopes.. (>.<") i'm so bad.. haha.. i know..

*i could only picture myself, to grow old with you. yes you. I love you, hunnie!*

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Monday, August 20, 2007

i'm disheartened by the paper. gravely.

*and i wonder how are you doing over there.. i miss you.*

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Sunday, August 19, 2007

yesterday. hunnie promise to come over to meet me up early in the morning. he fell asleep again. yet another disappointment. he has NEVER make any mornings successful for a damn long time. i predict he can't make it anyway. took my paper. oh well.. it's a damn fucking sickass tough paper. to think i didn't sleep thruout the whole night for it. i had a bad morning with these two. pouring made my day worst, right after my paper. walked out with liduan and grace. called him, and he said he's at clementi, buying smt for me. wait and wait.. could almost see none of the HS pple ard anymore. finally i see my 'botak', and he gave a long & warm hug in this such cold weather. really warm me & my heart though. & i finally see MEILING! miss tt girl! went amkHub straight, to catch a Bourne Ultimate went StickyRice for lunch, thai-style sharksfin soup, boneless stuffed chicken wing and my belovable Phad-Thai! woohoohoo! been two years since i had few dishes of thai food tt i like. the chicken wings are a lil disappointing. movie time! so excited. but i fell asleep, coz it's all about chasing around and shooting & stuffs. i rather watch ghost show. his embrace are just too irresistibly lullabying. zZz~ woke up halfway, and continue to watch. had fun in the arcade, while playing the new machine. funny. shop a while and head to McCafe. HotChocolate, HoneydewFrappe & AppleCrumble. yum! shop before heading back to grandma's house, to get changed. proceed to his camp, & hit me with a sudden news. instead of 2wks@ tekong, it's 5days4nights. with NO PHONE!. suppose this gf of yurs is a lil muddleheaded. nv listen properly while on phone. great. sighz..

got home & call immdiately, he's busy packing. went downstairs to eat with parents, msg meanwhile & called him after i got back, he's still packing.. called him again & dozed off while at room.. 3.40++ am woke up to my alarm and called him.. he's preparing to leave soon, and can't talk much. 2mins3secs. we ended there. i missed your call half an hr later, i called back yet half an hr later. you're no longer there. we part just like that. hunnie.. you have not bide me goodbye yet. ="(

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Friday, August 17, 2007

Do You Know (The Ping Pong Song)

Enrique Iglesias

And do you know ..
Do you know..

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

How can I love you How can I love you How can I love you . . . .
If you just don’t talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.

Do you know

Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that’s never happened to me.

Do you know

But after this episode I don’t see, you could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know,
Do you know, Do you know . . . .

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Thursday, August 16, 2007

.when i'm plain bored.

darn bored can.. sighx..

*how can i love you how can i love you how can i love you?*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEONA babe!! muack! hope ya like the flower! =)

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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

awww.. granny bought me the black skinny i eyed on.. shucks.. a bomb cost..

bought her some diabetic food products and heat pack in return for her; from AMKhub.. giving her tomorrow. and bought myself navy blue peeptoe heels.

*tsk.. i'm guilty.*

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

God grant me brother to buy this for me.. yooz... haha.. my second encounter with Donut Factory's nutz!

*i'll be stuck with hunnie's grandma this week. here i come~~~ yayness!*

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Saturday, August 11, 2007

PSP

do you get PSP for gf/bf just so that she'd get back home earlier to play.
(she's not at all interested in games, if it's when sec sch; maybe.)
do you fork out that 400plus for PSP, no matter how hard she say, she's in need or more to phone. her phone is problematic, and "cancer cells" spread around her LCD within 2 months like no one's business. (you prioritize PSP.)
one more thing, she charged the PSP, she even bought the guide to PSP for pathetic 17bucks to read, yet she didn't even lay her hands on that PSP. (somehow it didn't roused any interest)
you bought the wrong gadget out of the wrong intention for the wrong purpose at the wrong time. wrong wrong wrong WRONG! that PSP is lying like stale nut. what's so nice.

*i appreciate, but i don't enjoy*

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Thursday, August 09, 2007

Just For Gag. this is what i fish out from bloghop.
ohgggaaayyy... enough of the curiosity and laugh, people.. i think he didn't meant it. neither it's an offence, mr lee.. teeheehee.. anyway.. happy birthday Singapore. choiceless what.. i'm made in singapore.. lol.. had a fun day with my dear (hairless) Chewy.. keke.. his very first hairless pic gonna be showcase soon; coming in your way. bleahs! don't worry people i'm fine. =)

*when i say "i love you", i really meant I love you.. not love you.. who love you? ??love you..?! where's the 'I'.. lolx..*

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Wednesday, August 08, 2007

the saddest part of it is..

he actually do not see how much you have done for him.. and that he do not appreciate you at all.. and when you came home all strained coz of him.. he'd only ask for more, more and more.. he'd only see his own pain.. could only feel how strain he is.. did he ever ask..? for the whole day, you're waiting for his call.. for that pathetic 15 minutes or less.. and he'd end up hanging yur call, he'd end up ASLEEP within 2 minutes. you'd find yourself shouting over the phone at him. won't you be angry? it's everyday's shits. he'd only ask you to be understanding, to talk softer while talking to him, to talk in a better tone, to report your whereabouts, your time out of house and back home each day.. this is his only concerns.. your cough, your fever, your sore throat, your dilemma, your conditions you are in, he wun ask a thing. he don't find it of his concerns. book out day, all he wanted is to meet you up, flared when you can't squeeze out much time for him, and when not meeting up, he'd turn to games, he'd go into your accounts; friendster, blog, msn and all.. and start asking who's this, who's that, who's who and why this why that.. he wun improve relationship by blogging stuffs of us despite numerous persuations, he'd only say he's sleepy, he's tired, he've got no time.. forever, you'd never know where his time had gone to or spent with.

*oh NS! where's ur promise to grant me a better him, why was it a mth & he didn't changed, yet worsen*

you cheater.

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Monday, August 06, 2007

i'm starting this entry with a mind in blank..

thinkin of you as i typed this down..
back in our schooldays, i remember glances exchanged even though we've our own partners. we didn't have the chance to talk & didn't bother much bout knowing each other as well.. thank god for that class fundraising event. we corporated & start 'hi-bye' after that. i know u as pauL, u know me as charcoal-mei. we did talk as a group but not btw us. as time ticks away, here comes Valentine's; u're selling ur 'roses' alone, while by my side there's still a 'him' with me. i reject ur offer & whizz off in mere seconds - back home. 3 days, u added me, we talked, we joked, shared our woes, shared our history, we found things in common, we found things coincidential, we found we would have known each other had not been this and that. we could have know each other early, and that will save you from much hurt inflicted by some cheap ones. we found that we could have go Thailand trip together, & i'd not have been such a lonely soul throughout. it felt so different when you started calling me a certain something(s). it's all so weird, that i began to distant away from both. to search myself & my heart. i've found 3 rings awaiting for me. i knew you are the one, i denied to myself you are not & the one i love is him. we didn't end here, we talked still. gave me listening ears, allowing me to confide, waiting for me this early just to send me to archery. we progressed, yet revealing to anyone. coz i felt things can't be true; it's not right. i need some time, time to tell, time to show..

now, we're officially "eLynapauL". things are, well, sort of worry-free. those good times, please etched it hard in your mind. i miss those times when we went safari, enjoy our meals that we prepared together, lying on your chest & talking throughout the night, fish by the shore & in our very own tent, at our own chalet, having you to be in my lecture class; snoring away, piggyback me, pinching each other till we're all bruised, our wildwildwet & escape theme park, scaring & tickling each other, our graffitti. tsk.. & of coz.. our quarrels; stuffs learnt bout how we felt towards e matters, the big accusation that tide me down, objections & all.

*eLynapauL don't come by easily.. don't we..?* =")

Fret not, my heart is sure.
As time goes on, I love you more.
Your happy smile, your loving face.
No one will ever take your place. yea?

even if there's 2nd pauL, 3rd, 4th or 5th. who cares? you are the only one who can fill this love with me.

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Friday, August 03, 2007

this entry spells.....
WATEVER~!
wahahaha..

whatever okae..? whatever.. lol... everything's just too bad.. BOO! wahahahaha..
*dun wimp like a pussy, and whimper back to your mama's embrace.. tsktsktsk..*

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Thursday, August 02, 2007

A DAY WITH GRANDMA.

totally no class at all yesterday.. lol.. or should i say i dismissed myself for the only two-hour class.. haha.. coz the 4hrs of NSL is used as practical exam for the remaining classmates in my class. they got ECG & Blood Transfusion. idioitic. i'm still not over the fact tt i gt myself chest tube. sighz.

early in morning, went to hunnie's grandma's hse @AMK. bought Toastbox's 3 different thick toasts for aunt Mag & reached @ 8.30am. i took 1 of the thick toast & gRanny watched me eat thruout. tried to find as much topic to talk to each other, appreciate her attempt in using much Chinese. we talked Dialects for the whole day thereafter. cuteness.

accompany her to the market, carry stuffs, & mistakened as her granddaughter. funny. home straight, & see how she handle the fishes & veggies & all, gRanny got me salt water for sore throat, to the hall read newspaper awhile, while she do the lunch. back to newspaper awhile, then asleep.

oops.. heex.. really too giddy le.. i'm still running 39.2degree fever at 6am. nap frm 1pm till 3pm. she cut me pear & apple. woohoo! nice & i'm feeling a lil better. sit down & talk talk, watched 2+hr of teevee.. talk abt the teevee characters & talk abt her darling grandson. how picky he is towards food, how he is like when with me.. & blah blah blah.. hearty & casual talk.. hmm.. it just click.. everything.. teeheehee.. love it!

help her with pre-meal Blood Glucose Monitoring before she warm the corn&carrot soup & ensure that i'm not empty-stomached before heading home. yummy soup! it's so thoughtful of her.. & she provided sucha good hospitality.. yoohoohoo.. gonna meet her up next week! with great grandma too! keke.. may seemed a boring day to you guys.. but it meant quite a lot for me.. yeah.. so please understand.. heex.. =P

bid her goodbye @ 7.10pm. sweet home 8pm.

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Wednesday, August 01, 2007

HAPPY NURSES' DAY!!

July is all-so-over! & hey! August.
Nothing in my calender except Nurses' day, our 18th Anniversary & lame national day. anymore special dates??
the night seemed so get colder as days pass.. i know it's raining & very cold over at my area at night time. i know both of us are gettin sick soon. i hope you'd covered yourself well with blankets. take the panadol or gastric medications i prepared for you in the mini first-aid box. drink more water.. i can't be with you & dun be misled by your bunkmates, eg. smoking & porno. i'll mince everyone up, startin with the person named pauL cHew & LoO hAowEi.

Hey Everybody! today's NURSES' DAY!! lol.. HS Idol & Racial Harmony's best-dressed contest..
HS Idol: dunno who's in the competition.. heard one of `em is Shila.. yoohoohoo!
Racial Harmony Thingy: ~~I've got a bad feelin`.~~ this is my bad feelin.

first prize. best dressed. lol. nervous.

*i'm having a "cold" in my heart, but my throat & body are radiating heat*

i'm having fever. 38.9 degree.

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